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Acquiesce -

To Assent Tacitly ; Comply Without Protest.


I Don't Think I -
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Could ever get used to this.

He's always on my mind
From the time I wake up
'Til I close my eyes
He's everywhere I go
He's all I know


Though he's so far away
It just keeps getting stronger every day
And even now he's gone
I'm still holding on


So tell me where do I start
'Cause it's breaking my heart
Don't wanna let him go

Maybe my love will come back some day
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find their way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'Cause heaven knows

My friends keep telling me
That if you really love him
You've gotta set him free
And if he returns in time
I'll know he's mine

So tell me where do I start
'Cause it's breaking my heart
Don't wanna let her go

Maybe my love will come back some day
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find their way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'Cause heaven knows

Why I live in despair
'Cause wide awake or dreaming
I know he's never there
And all these time I act so brave
I'm shaking inside
Why does it hurt me so


Maybe my love will come back some day
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find their way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'Cause heaven knows

Heaven knows.
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Rise and Shine! Rise and Shine!
Make a wish
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There is a trick that would come in handy for me -- get me out of this two-by-four situation.


At this time you are really feeling quite exhausted by all the conflict and quarrelling that is going on about you and you are looking for some sort of protection from this state of affairs. Ideally you are seeking a peaceful condition and a tranquil environment in which you can be afforded the chance to relax and recover.


Your situation is such that at this time it is essential that you resolve your inherent problems immediately. You are not listening nor taking heed from your many friends and advisers, all of which believe it or not, 'wish you well'. Most of your colleagues feel that your attitude is out of context - an attitude of recklessness and desperation. It is imperative that some solution be found, but whatever you do, think before you act.


The situation at this time is one of considerable distress. You feel trapped and you are looking for some way out. You can find solace in the arms of someone who cares so long as there is no long-term emotional involvement.


You are experiencing considerable stress which is essentially the result of on going rejection and hostility. You are in the unpleasant position where offers of trust, affection and understanding are being withheld and you are being treaded with a degrading lack of consideration. You feel that you are being denied the appreciation that you deserve, which is essential to your well-being and self-esteem, but you have to face up to the situation because as matters stand at this time there is little that you can do about it - you feel that you are getting nowhere and the continuous struggle is a lonely one: all difficulties and no encouragement. Whatever you try to say or do is met with continuous hostility and no matter how much you protest you are consistently misunderstood. You need to escape from the situation but you are so perplexed that you cannot find the strength of mind to make the necessary decision.


In the past your trusting attitude has often been misunderstood and so you have needed to protect yourself against your tendency to be abused and taken advantage of. As a consequence you possibly adopt an aloof and critical attitude and you are only willing to let your guard down once sincerity and trustworthiness can be assured.



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It Was Never My Intention -
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To make you cry like a little child.

 Huiyee uses judgment to make decisions. She is ruled by her head, not her heart. She is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see her as unemotional. She does have emotions but has no need to express them. She is withdrawn into herself and enjoys being alone.

The circumstances when Huiyee does express emotions include: extreme anger, extreme passion, and tremendous stress. If someone gets her mad enough to tell her off, she will not be sorry about it later. She puts a mark in her mind when someone angers her. She keeps track of these marks and when she hits that last mark she will let them know they have gone too far. She is ruled somewhat by self-interest. All her conclusions are made without outside emotional influence. She is very level-headed and will remain calm in an emergency situation. In a situation where other people might get hysterical, she has poise.

Huiyee will work more efficiently if given space and time to be alone. She would rather not be surrounded by people constantly. In a relationship, she will show her love by the things she does rather than by the things she says. Saying "I love you" is not a needed routine because she feels her mate should already know. The only exception to this is if she has logically concluded that it is best for her mate to hear her express her love verbally.

Huiyee is not subject to emotional appeals. If someone is selling a product to her, they will need to present only the facts. They should present them from a standpoint of her sound judgment. She will not be taken in by an emotional story about someone else. She will meet emergencies without getting hysterical and she will always ask "Is this best for me?"

 People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Huiyee doesn't write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.

 Huiyee will demand respect and will expect others to treat her with honor and dignity. Huiyee believes in her ideas and will expect other people to also respect them. She has a lot of pride.

 Huiyee is not facing something going on in her life today. She is deceiving herself about it. Often, Huiyee's opinion of herself is different than those around her. This trait gives Huiyee the ability to deny anything that does not agree with her "truth." This trait is not always something negative. It is only a defense mechanism allowing Huiyee not to face some reality in her life at this time.

 In reference to Huiyee's mental abilities, she has a very investigating and creating mind. She investigates projects rapidly because she is curious about many things. She gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but she soon must slow down and look at all the angles. She probably gets too many things going at once. When Huiyee slows down, then she becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, she must slow down to do it. She then decides what projects she has time to finish. Thus she finishes at a slower pace than when she started the project.

She has the best of two kinds of minds. One is the quick investigating mind. The other is the creative mind. Her mind thinks quick and rapidly in the investigative mode. She can learn quicker, investigate more, and think faster. Huiyee can then switch into her low gear. When she is in the slower mode, she can be creative, remember longer and stack facts in a logical manner. She is more logical this way and can climb mental mountains with a much better grip.

 Huiyee is a practical person whose goals are planned, practical, and down to earth. This is typical of people with normal healthy self-esteem. She needs to visualize the end of a project before she starts. she finds joy in anticipation and planning. Notice that I said she plans everything she is going to do, that doesn't necessarily mean things go as planned. Huiyee basically feels good about herself. She has a positive self-esteem which contributes to her success. She feels she has the ability to achieve anything she sets her mind to. However, she sets her goals using practicality-- not too "out of reach". She has enough self-confidence to leave a bad situation, yet, she will not take great risks, as they relate to her goals. A good esteem is one key to a happy life. Although there is room for improvement in the confidence catagery, her self-perception is better than average.

 Huiyee is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect her ego when she feels hurt. She pokes people harder than she gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.

 Huiyee has a healthy imagination and displays a fair amount of trust. She lets new people into her circle of friends. She uses her imagination to understand new ideas, things, and people.

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Life's Pretty Much -
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To Whom It May Concern,
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"3563.) You aren’t the same person I fell in love with. Unless I fell in love with someone who was never really there. We always talk about what you want, I stay up late for you even if I had a horrible and tiring day, and I lie and say I’m fine with everything you do. You obviously never loved me and I don’t even know why I wanted you. You need to figure out who and what you want on your own. I’m not waiting for you anymore. You already broke my heart."

-blogconfessions.tumblr.com
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Just Sayin' -
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"3521.) I just wrote down all of the times where you did me wrong, but I just deleted them. I’m ready to make it work. Are you? I realize both of us have our own imperfections. I guess pressure in life and people got in our way. I have my scars too, deeper than you think. Though you may know some of them, during the earlier part of our lives, it’s not the same this time. Of all the years of our friendship, I needed you so badly last year, you had no idea. Oh no, you had no idea. Our communication broke down so badly, I didn’t even know how to tell you. And I’m sorry for judging you. I may have tons of people around me now, but no, nobody can replace what we had. I may have been stupid once, twice…but no, enough, I miss you. I have been so used to keeping it all inside, I couldn’t even tell you that. Screw what they say. Screw every single bad thing that happens in our lives. Screw all this “pay back to each other”. I just wished we could have been there for each other. I needed to isolate myself, to think. I’m sorry. I’m slowly picking the pieces back up, and I’m trying to put everything back together. Yes, I admit it, we hurt each other. Maybe it was me, maybe it was you. Either way, I couldn’t believe I let someone else come between us. We were close, tight. We were each other’s rock. I couldn’t even tell you what happened to me. It hurts too much to say. I didn’t even realize why I kept picking stuff that was your favourite colour when I went shopping. It’s not even my favourite colour. And yet I asked for them anyway. They say its tough once you lose each other’s trust, but I believe it was a mixture of miscommunication and bad judgment. We can do this. Both of us. We can. We just need to start somewhere. Let’s make it work, babe."

-blogconfession.tumblr.com
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It's Not Up To Me -
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Here we go again.



Bottling It Up, )
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You And I Must Make A Pact -
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That you'll stand by me forever.

If that wasn't obvious enough,this post is specially dedicated to a group of special people:
My Cat Rush. (:

Rachel Tan Cheng Yee,
Fadhillah Musa,
Nicolette Wong Ching Shan,
Isabelle Wong Ching Yeng,


I MISS ALL OF YOU DAMN A LOT! ):
MEET UP FOR MACS SOON PL0XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX~~
(ToT)

With truckloaddddddddddddddddds of l♥ve,
HY.
luvumizzuwannakizzu!
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Lost And Found -
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Who is that girl?

Sinking into nostalgia.
I'm losing myself.
Gone for good.
I will be back.


Every so often we long to steal,
To the land of what might have been,
But that doesn't soften the ache we feel -
When reality sets back in.
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Mirrors -
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Intricately made up of memories and words joined at right angles.

I have nothing to blog about, yet I had an urge to just open a new post.
Life's been pretty awesome - I'm sixteen! :D Absolutely legal to catch "The Man Who Stares at Goats". Heh.
Birthday party was great, I love my friends and bandits! (and teachers? :P) I don't think I'm obliged to mention how much I love my family because it's mandatory  very much established.
I don't really want to comment on the SYF Central Judging or Marching Assessment but I would just like to say "Good job!" to TK and Bowen. Honestly, I enjoyed their performance. And a special shout-out goes out to the Marist Bandittos for their (unexpectedly) scintillating show! Don't be sorry (pun intended) for going from zero to hero! Pretty impressive for a first-timer yeah! (:

I really enjoy good books. I've been pretty excited about visiting the school library recently because I just found so many new books by authors whom I like! :D Yann Martel is a genius! I have a feeling that my writing would be very much influenced by him for the new few months because I really adore his style of writing and the way words enter a whole new dimension under his pen - or keyboard,for that matter. They become more than mere alphabets in a sentence; more like colours forming a rainbow with a pot of gold at the end,making you take each step with new excitement and anticipation. I don't mind Aravind Adiga either. I love Crescent. <3

040408. I'm not really sure what I want you to do. I know we probably won't even be friends in the near future,but I just want you to know that I miss you even if it's to an infinitesimal extent. I cannot say that I didn't enjoy a single second spent with you,nor can I say that I have forgotten about you entirely. You exist somewhere in my world,buried beneath painful memories of heartbreak and bitter reminders of a friendship that died; you are still here in my heart,that for sure I know. Who am I to you now?
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